I believe in *Miracles* ~~: Everything...ENDED...

Blogging this with a heavy heart now...I do not know this post is going to be a long or a short post.

Woke up in the middle of the night (today) when I came back from toilet...saw my phone keep vibrating...I was hoping and hoping and it really saddened me a lot when I read the msges. Indeed, it was a broke-up msg. My tears was flowing like tap continuously and it is not stopping. Please stop, tears. It alrdy has happened...can't be salvaged back anymre when I really wanted to. Even though if salvaged back, things aren't gonna be the same anymore. I was indeed as naive as TJY...thought of this person would be our lifelong partner..but it will never be the same again...When I saw his tweet yesterday nite and I guessed something is going to happen, and I pray for miracles....but it turned out to be...real happening...

No quarrel, nor anything, and yet we ended up in this stage. Almost all our friends were so envy that we hardly quarrelled, only once over sms, but it's only a trivial matter...but once after that, we are back to normal again...but nevetherless...it didn't last for long. Feel sad and in agony at the same time..I was browsing through all the sweet msges and deleting one by one...before deleting, I will read again and again till it's being captured in my heart and brain...but when I delete, my heart cried one time...a total of 176 msges plus previous msges which have been deleted...i do not know many times I have cried..I have told myself....Will miracles ever happened on me? Am I one of the lucky person? Guess I'm not.

Neoprint and colour sand...will be safely kept at one side and this will be the memories between us..the sweetest memories...hope you will keep the things I gave you

To this very Special person of mine:

I do not know if you will ever read this post, but I guessed you won't ever be reading and not even in the future. For the past 4 months, we enjoyed the moment with each other together, although it didn't last for very long..but every moments that we spent will always be captured in my heart. Though I am not really willing to accept the fate and reality, but still I am hoping for the best, but it didn't turned out well enough. I am very contented of what you have given me these 4 months and I didn't ask for more. You can say I am very naive of thinking wanting to continue being with you, but guessed as much, you won't.
Don't worry..I will try to move on and carry on with my life, but I need more time to go out of this saddness. I am not as weak as what you will think.
I can never expect anymore morning smses, spamming, sweet msges words from you, no more hugs, no more cuddling, tickling, tempting and so on...but only in a position as a close friend I think? Will try to get used to it although I yearn for every morning smses. You have changed my life completely. I can say that I really never ever feel regretted of starting this r/s with you..really really NEVER...The promises that you have made to me will never ever come true again... I still like you, and the feeling will never ever be changed unless I have found another guy who is better than you, treating me better. But I will never get to experience the way you treat me so good.
No matter what, in my heart, you stand a very impt role to me and no one is ever gonna steal that position away from you, and you will never be forgotten....NEVER...I hope I still stand a very impt place in your heart too and never be forgotten.

YOU SHALL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED BY ME!