I'm going crazy if I'm not going to blog about my feelings. I was kinda feeling guilty towards this guy when I rejected him yesterday and told him about how I feel.
Somehow I think that when we are friends, we have a lot of things to talk, but when we become couples, we dun talk much..i observe this when i was with him alone for a few times...I have warned him before that I dun like guys to tickle me and so on, and he did it yesterday which really irritates me a lot. Then he knew that he stepped on my tail, and quickly apologised a few times.
The after that, he asked me abt this issue : among the 2 guys in the movie which we watched yesterday, U think who am I? I replied him: None, u think u fit either one of their criteria?
He told me he is not that guy who likes to take the initiative and doesn't know how to create surprises. So I said a few things to him..bla bla bla..not convenient to say out here.
Since what I have said can't be taken back alrdy, and just let it go. Let me be the bad person, hate me for all he wants if by doing that will make him feel better...let him hurt better than telling him the truth in the future. I know when upon seeing him, we will feel awkward...this is a normal routine, just let it natural flow. I am feeling guilty when rejecting him, but I know it hurts a lot, this will take time bah to heal bah.