I believe in *Miracles* ~~: June 2008

I dun know why I can't stop missing him. Why am I like that? It's been 5 years since I last saw him and parted from him. The 1st year when I was in Sec 1, I can't stop missing him. But as the time goes along, I am not missing him too much. But dun know why I can't just erase him off from my mind. Wonder how is he doing now. Every teachers' day, when I went to viait teachers from student care centre, I will always long to see him. Whenever I go there and ask one of the teacher or aunty, the answer will be always a 'NO'. This lead to my disappointment. The reason why i go there to visit teachers is also because of trying my luck, hoping to see him. I always stay there for very long because I want to see him. Just once will do, but no luck. Hope there will be a chance for me to see him again one day. I really miss him.

Back to blog. Just now was studying S.S for next coming Monday. So hard to remember all the details in one go!! Have been trying hard to 'squeeze' all the informations into my brain, but it cannot worked. So stupid of me. Just now went to library to return books and borrow it another 4 sets of books. All the books that i've read were all romance stories. It's all in Chinese. if I read a particular book which makes me feel touched, I will really cry, but not that serious lah. Gtg..bye bye..will blog again tmr...

Finally, end of this week and I am going to have a good rest before study for the S.S for the upcoming Monday. Arghh..I hate it. Tutorial starting next week, too. The worst is that there will be 2 days which will end at 2.15pm. Those 2 days are Mondays and Wednesdays. I hate this arrangement. Arghhh....Shall not say it anymore. Till then.

Phew!! After tmr, it will be time for me to rest till the 2nd week of school starts. I'm damn tired today, feel like sleeping in class when the teacher is teaching the lesson. Argh..Muz replenish my sleep well, if not, I really cannot cope with my studies. Till then...

Back from school. Very tired...shall not blog today..bye...

Had a talk yesterday with mummy about the 9pm show regarding the alimony and all. Mummy told me that if she were divorced, she will ask a lump sum of alimony from daddy. She is just stating an example. I know mummy and daddy were so loving...Mummy asked me if I were divorced, will I choose to get alimony from my ex-husband? My answer is YES!! Definitely...But I choose to get that sum month by month, but must be a reasonable amount that the other party can afford. I love discussing all sorts of issues with mummy as I think that she will be a good listener if I have any problem facing in my life.

Today is the starting day of school. A brand new term. A new start is good, but this morning, I dun have a really good start. in the morning, when I walked to school, I almost tripped anf fell, but luckily I am able to stable myself. Is it considered lucky or unlucky? Reached school around 7.05am. Then assembly. The Sec 2s were being moved to where the Sec 4s and 5s were during the 1st semester, and we moved to where they were. Then after assembly, Ms Martens introduced the new vice-principal. If I'm not wrong, she is called Ms Teo. Then the new VP introduced a few new staffs who will be teaching some of the class. Oh.. and welcome back, Mrs Stevenson. She was the teacher who taught me home econs when I was in Sec 2, and now she is back. Then returned to class to spend 3 periods with form teacher, then lessons as usual. There was one new cafe which is located in front of the science lab. It's called the 'Good and News Cafe'. There is a lot of things, eg...ice-cream, honey baked chicken and ham sandwich, chicken and tuna salad, corn chips with cheese, latte, cappucino and etc... Hmm...till then...

School is going to reopen tmr. Has not been really looking forward to it. For the past few weeks or days, I've been going to school for normal lessons, so that's why I'm not really looking forward to tmr's school reopening. That means when school reopen, more tests, drills, exams, revision will be going on till the 'O' levels. Till then...

2 more days school is going to reopen. Feel very tired this morning. I also dun know what's the reason why I am like that. Woke up at 9 plus, then read storybook until 12 plus and went to sleep again. I dun know why am I so tired today. Maybe because school is reopening and I can feel the pressure when school starts again, and there's gonna be drills of test, exams,. Just only 1 word, 'REVISION', till the 'O' levels...Till then..I am feeling tired and sleepy again.

Today is the last day of hols which means school reopen next week and 'O' level oral will start that week. Haven't completed the hol homework and I am still struggling with it. Nothing much to blog. Till then...

At last, can rest for the last 2 days of hols. Been so tired out that I hardly had enough sleep for the past 3 days. Now can sleep in a bit later and here I am blogging. When the new tern starts, there will be 'O' level Mother Tongue Oral immediately. Haven't really been touching any books after mid-year, except do a bit of assessment, that's all. Going out later with my mum...Till then...bye...

Finally, today is the last hay of extra lessons before the new term starts. I am not paying attention to what the teacher is talking about. Was a bit kinda tired and sleepy at that time. Haven't completed the hol homework that teacher has given. Shall do later probably. Till then...bye...

Tmr will be the last day of extra lessons of the week. And after tmr's lessons can have a good rest till the next term starts although it will be a very short break to me. I'm trying to have enough rest as the next term will start on the next monday and there will be 'O' level Chinese Oral soon after.

I'm stating a fact. Dun blame me for saying that. Sorrie if you are offended in some ways. Why are all the males have a higher chance of winning the title of every competitons? Is it really true that the females have lower chance than the males? Is it the audience always like the males much more than the females? For example, PSS1 and PSS2, CSS1 and CSS2, Star Idol, Star Search, Singapore Idol, and U Are The One. These competitions that I'm stating are really true that males clinched the title. Except for 'The Dance Floor' is the female. Is it true that the males are more capable than the females of winning the title? Once again, sorrie if I offend you in any way. I sincerely apologised...

Happy Fathers' Day to all the fathers.

And also a Happy 11th Birthday to Chiam Jia Ying!!

Tmr there's lesson in the morning..Haiz...Why can't we have a proper break before the new school term starts?

Blog today. Actually there's nothing much to blog. Anyway, next monday have to go back to school for extra lessons. Usual time, from 8am-12.30pm, only the 1st 3 days. The other 2 days I shall have plenty of rest before the school reopens. Till then...

Shall blog today. Today is considered as the last week of hols for me as I have extra lessons next week for the 1st 3 days. Next saturday I dun know whether I will go for the charity show at Kong Meng Sang Phor Kak See Monastery. It's not a live show, but some kind of an event to help the poor. I'm still considering and the next sat (5/7), I think there's a superstar roadshow in front of Bedok Fairprice. I dun know the details yet. I will go if there is event at there. Till then...

Shall blog today. Yesterday went to marina square with a friend. Just went there for window shopping. It was quite big and there were a lot of varieties to choose from. It was a pity that I cannot afford anything there as I had not enough money with me at that time. Then around 3 plus, we went to mac to have our break so called a tea-break, went there and met gloria, the ex-member of netball. Then something quite funny. My friend was talking to one of her friend on her phone, and the little boy next to her accidentally kicked her bag, and her mother told him, dun kick, or else jie-jie will get angry, hah? That time, I want to laugh out but too embarassed to laugh as if I laugh, they will know that I am laughing at them. So, I tolerate until we went out and then I told her what happened in the mac just now when she was talking to her friend on the phone. Wah, then this one surely look like an auntie looking for a clothing for so long which was my friend. I remembered the shop name called the 'Inbase' which sold clothing, jackets, pants. That time was around 5.15pm. I waited and waited for 1 1/2 hours for her. She chose 1 clothes pretty long and I am getting impatient at that time. The time was 6.45pm by the time she came out. I was pretty angry with her as I cannot watch the full episode of 'Love blossom'. There goes half the episode which I didn't watch.

Yeah..tonight going to watch 'The Showdown' as tonight is diya's group turn. Their opponent will be 'The Dance Floor' contestants. Wonder which group will win. Stay tune, yah? 8pm on channel 5.

Yeah, tmr goona go out with my friend. Meeting her at 1.30pm at bedok mrt platform. Haha.. This is the usual venue that we will meet everytime we go out together. Ok..I'm not really in a good mood today. Dun know why also...Shan't blog anymore...bye bye..Shall blog again tmr...

All rite, shall change my mind. I'm back to blog. Yesterday, CM cousin went to my house to give my father some dumplings and then proceeded to grandfather's house. She aksed me whether I want to go with her. I told her that I dun want to go as hana kimi was the last episode. Then watched dear son son-in-law. Nice nice...All rite, this coming wednesday going out with my friend to marina to walk. So long never see her, shall catch up a bit with her when I meet her that day. Shan't blog anymore..bye..till then...

Shall not blog today...bye bye...

2 weeks holidays have passed so quickly. Just left another 2 more weeks before school reopen. The last week of hol for the 1st 3 days, there's still lesson from 8am-12.30pm. The last 2 days I'm gonna to have enough rest before the new term begins.

5 years have passed since I graduated from primary school. I remembered a few of them who were in the same batch with me. Martin, Beng Chun, Terence, Wei Lun, Yung Boon, Sai Chong, Qing Hong and Isabella. Those 8 of us were considered not very close to each other but often meet. That time, I remembered we were in the student care centre and we were having fun playing and tricking each other. I missed those days. And I have not seen the teachers yet. How I wished I can go back to the past? Qing Hong and Yung Boon, I saw them recently. But the others I really want to know about their news. Heard that Beng Chun has stopped studying since 'N' level, I guess. How I wished we have a small gathering to gather everybody together. I really missed those days spent with them.

Today is the last day of the 2nd week. Haven't started on any revision, have been busy reading chinese storybooks that I've been borrowing...these few days really been very enriching and fruitful to me.

Sayonara to my long hair. Actually, it's not really long, but just only the shoulder length. Just cut my hair before I come and blog. It's already the 2nd week of hols and yet I didn't even do any homework nor start any revision for the upcoming prelims. Bleah...Going out to white sands and tm later with my mum. So long never go to white sands there to shop already....bye bye...

Had a quarrel with my dad yesterday over trivial matters. I really didn't mean to shout at him. This makes me feel very regretful. Hope that he can forgive me affter he reads what I have written in my notebook.

Just received a message from my cousin that Lisa and him are getting along very well. So pleased that they share the same ideal so that they can communicate very well. I hope to meet someone like my cousin who share the same ideal with me. With the same ideal in life, both couples will sure communicate very well.

Finally, there's a 2 weeks rest till the next holiday lesson resumes on the last week of hols. Just took some random pics..haha...

This symbolises the couples. This pair was given by my cousin and Lisa to every guests.

This is a clearer view of them...

Sorrie if it's a bit blur...

All rite, shall blog in details about the wedding dinner yesterday. Reached my cousin's house around 6.30pm. Seated under the block, and waited for the bus to arrive punctually at 7pm. But the bus was late. Around 7.10pm, the bus came and everybody there going for the wedding dinner boarded the bus. Went smoothly earlier, and my cousin and myself were listening to mp3 on the bus and busy taking photo at the same time, but when we reached the orchard part, where it was the busiest street ever, there was a real traffic jam. We were stuck there till 7.45pm and we were late for the wedding dinner. Reached the hotel around 8pm, very late, hur? Then when we reached there, it was really grand and one of the lift that we saw was really spacious. Thn when we went to the function room, it was really like a palace. Saw the wedding photos on the screen and those were really really nice pics ever. Then we sat down and waited for the dinner course to start. At last, the crucial moment had arrived. The bride and the groom were walking along the aisle with some smoke. I can feel my leg being filled with that cold smoke. I was shivering all along. The bride was pretty and the groom was handsome. The groom was my cousin. And when they walked up to the stage, the groom started to talk about how his loving mother brought him up with a lot of care and concern for him. Then when I heard this, I was feeling very touched of what he has said. Then the dinner course started. Around half and hour later, the bride wore the wedding gown which was green in colour and the groom wore the smart grey suit and came in again. And when they walked up to the stage again, they were asked to have a toast to everybody, including their family members on stage. Then, the bride and the groom walked around each table to have a photo taken with everybody. Then, one of the table, I saw Lisa, who was the bride standing on the chair with the groom holding tightly onto her, heh heh, They were so loving that I 'purposely' took a photo with a kiss scene on them. So loving...haha...The the dinner course ended around 10.45pm and yet, another traffic jam which made us feel very impatient as we were so tired that we hardly ever can talk to each other anymore. Reached home around 12am and immediately, I lied down and went to sleep immediately.